The final habitus

I don't think it necessarily changed, I think my view still stands that habitus begins with you. However, I see how some things in my habitus has changed. As looking at my entry about Habitus is interesting for the most part. I talk about the way I came out and how it was different for people, but I didn't mention the disgust that my mother's second husband had for me. He always viewed same-sex attracted people as people who should "do it in their own homes but don't bring it outside" which confused me. Straight people are allowed to showcase their love for their partner, even I (as someone who is dating a cismale) can hold his hand, kiss him goodbye, hug him without it being weird for the most part.

He was someone who, when the votes came out for the SSM survey with the country saying yes, I ran up to him and told him and he said: "you know how I feel about that!" With so much venom in his voice, whereas, when Mum told me they passed the law to allow SSM in Australia, I cried in her arms and she hugged me. While I have the luxury of marrying my partner, I might have the chance to see many of my queer friends marry their partner, or who knows, I might run away with a woman and marry her. But I still understand that while the second husband was not okay with my lifestyle, I still have so many people in my life who are, and I'm not like the many others who don't get that ability.

My aesthetics hasn't changed, but I think for the most part, in creative writing I'm writing how I'd talk (albeit, without all the likes, but you can still see them scattered around, I promise you!) in these blog posts, and the assignments I've had to publish have all been in my voice so it's not so much I change how I speak for all academic purposes but for things like (there you go) my politic classes, my Italian class, my writing for video game class, my voice is polished; whereas in creative writing I can be as lax with my language as I want and I really enjoy that.

Good writing is subjective, I think that's what I come down to it in the end. While, yes, purple prose, bad spelling, and 50 Shades of Grey are still bad writing in my opinion - still, in the end, it's all subjective. Game of Thrones has a TON of purple prose (what the fuck are you doing George R. R. Martin???) yet people love it. Sometimes bad spelling is a point for the character, maybe they text messages like 'hey wat u up 2?' which is, of course, bad spelling but it works for the character then it works, and I can't really talk good about 50 Shades, so I'll leave it at that. Maybe my opinion will change later down the road like I said it might, and I definitely didn't think of it was subjective when I first wrote the blog entry, but here is the thinking of much.

My habitus has been re-structured throughout this class. I think I've come to a point where it's okay to write a white character, it's okay to write about Australia. I definitely thought "because there's not a lot of characters of colour, I need to write that" and hey, I'll always have characters that aren't white in my story, I still plan to write those stories. But it's okay if a character is white, it's okay if they're Anglo-Saxon because white people still exist, though there are many stories featuring white people and fewer people of colour, but it's still okay. It's also okay to write about Australia, I'm too focused on America when I'm also very anti-America (to a point), but writing locally, writing about the beach I live five minutes away from, and the way that my grandpa will say slang like 'ooroo' and my dad will say 'let's hit the frog and toad', that being Australian is okay and writing Australian is okay, you might have a limited audience, and maybe people in the states won't understand what those words mean, and that's okay.

As long as you're true to yourself, and write the words you want to write, and tell stories you want to believe, then your habitus will stay intact and stay true to itself.

"Habitus is important, and it helps us grow as people, and as a society to learn where certain situations come from."

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